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  • joanne; hong-kongnese; virgo; guitar; singing; sunflowers

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

  • "I never knew it would be this frightening."

    December 21, I still remember one year ago that day. LOL. But today's main purpose of this blog is not to talk about a year ago.

    In less than one month I will be leaving to Switzerland for operation. It's one of my biggest fear of all, as much as I want to act normal and think it's going to be fine, but in reality, it's NOT. I remember on November 25th, 2010 when I had to do some checkup which contains the same type of procedure for the coming operation. Before I went into the operation room, my whole body feels as if I was going through constant electric shock, I was shaking so much. Tears were just coming out like a constant rainstorm. Two days ago I saw this korean television episode where a woman was going to do some brain operation, she said, "I never knew it would be this frightening." Knowing that I have to go through this in less than a month again, it just kills me to think of it. I hate this feeling and I never want to go over it again.

    I know that there are more people who go through something even more painful, dangerous, fearful. And thinking about people who even suffer more than me, I shouldn't be crying anymore. I constantly tell myself the above, but why can't I control my feelings?

Thursday, 15 December 2011

  • New Start

    My old account got shutdown for just trying to change my username, so here I am now.

    Me and a friend of mine are actually composing a song with the idea of "a sense of loss." This brings me to the first song that I have composed during the start of this school year, I haven't really thought of a title yet, still here are the lyrics.

    CHORDS: Em C G D 

    I fuckin’ hate this feeling that is stuck in my heart

    I don’t seem to be able to get rid of it now

    This ignorance that’s illuminating up inside

    I can’t believe that I would be here

     

    Searching for you

    Feeling so incomplete

    I need a guide to lead me away

    Je tu aime is fake

    Why can’t you stop lying?

    Trapped in a box

    Can't seem to get out

    Images of you stuck in my head

    Is this even real

    Or just another nightmare

     

    You once made me laugh then you made me cry

    You say that you love me but it was all a lie

    I trusted you, with faith and all my soul

    You lied once again and nothing’s fixable

     

    Searching for you

    Feeling so incomplete

    I need a guide to lead me away

    Je tu aime is fake

    Why can’t you stop lying?

    Trapped in a box

    Can't seem to get out

    Images of you stuck in my head

    Is this even real

    Or just another nightmare

     

    Time goes by but the hatred still lies there

    All the lies are stuck my mind.

     

    Searching for you

    Feeling so incomplete

    I need a guide to lead me away

    Je tu aime is fake

    Why can’t you stop lying?

    Trapped in a box

    Can't seem to get out

    Images of you stuck in my head

    Is this even real

    Or just another nightmare

     

    Oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh


    To be honest, I composed this song to express my hatred feelings to a person. I have found that writing a song to express feelings is very relaxing and easy to do. 

    PS. Tell me if you like this or not and maybe suggest improvements? thanks :)

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